My Journey of Self-Love: Getting into spirituality

For the majority of my life I've been shy, lacking confidence and basically withdrawn from the world. After going thought some difficult traumas I had to readdress my life and begin the process of self-love which would not be an easy one. Something drew to me a holistic healer literally down the street from me which I had never heard about prior, that was the start of my inner journey to healing. She helped to to recognize what was deep down within me that prevented me from doing the things I'm passionate about and actually being happy doing them. I was going through a process of grief and self hatred at the same time, which made it hard to really trust my intuition and understand what I needed for myself to heal. This healer helped me to understand that the answers were all within me and if I just trust myself and understand how my past has led to my current state, I can grow. And she really helped me flourish like a flower in full bloom at the start of spring after enduring the coldest, darkest winter. I slowly became aware of my beautiful colors, my strong roots and stem, my leaves able to absorb new experiences and grow taller with them. I reached up to the sky with courage feeling my connection up above with the spiritual world and down below with the Earth, mother Gaia, grounding me back to my origin. It is the balance between being engrossed in our spirituality and sixth sense and staying grounded on the Earth. Although I look up to the sky, I sway with the wind, the heartbeat of the Earth.

I was invited by my healer to a Digging Deep workshop where I would understand what was still holding me back and explore the trauma throughout my life through spirituality. This is where my healer along with another healer helped me the most, where I truly developed my spirituality. I finally felt the truth that everything happens for a reason good or bad and I became thankful for my past traumas because they have made me who I am today. Everyone we meet in our lives is a guide to help us continue on our paths even the slightest bit. For instance an encounter with a stranger you had which had a lasting impression on you, that was a guide whom taught you something about yourself. If we listen to our intuition and pay attention we will be able to notice the gifts from the universe given to us every second of the day.

To truly experience everything you go through and feel every emotion deeply is a brave thing and that's what I learned with meditation. To sit with your feelings in silence is uncomfortable for many people, but it is necessary for healing. Meditation also takes you into the spiritual realm, your third eye, or your subconscious to help guide you to better understanding yourself. People often underestimate the inward journey, we are constantly distracted with external things and how they effect us, but in order to really understand how they effect us, we must first understand ourselves. I admit I'm not the most consistent with my spiritual practice, but even creating this blog is a form of self care for me, listening to my intuition telling me what I'm passionate about is spiritual growth. My journey is far from over and I know I have so much yet to learn but for now, I'm proud of the growth I've achieved since meeting the healer down the street from me.